Well here we are.. Many things have Happened . Sometimes I smile and my heart feels so much happiness that I cant hardly breath. And then the tears have happened. Life is sometimes an emotional roller-coaster. There are days that I laugh and feel fabulous. Then it seems like one thing can bring it down. Not one thing in particular just ONE thing. But the thing I learning is that life goes on .. It just does and you can either go with it and settle down or you can fight it tooth and nail Which is what I have done a whole lot in my life. I full on have been diagnosed with Obsessive compulsive disorder, depression and anxiety disorder. The whole reason I went to the doctor/Psychologist was to find out what I did have from a Professional stand point. After about 8 weeks of "talks and exercises" He finally diagnosed me with this. I was NOT surprised I just needed to know I wasn't crazy and the way that I felt was legit. I did not take the meds very long they made me sleepy and poopy. And as bad as I wanted to feel better I was really already used to the way I felt. So it wasn't anything to me. However everyday I think about it and sometimes find myself telling me! that I have these issues. It helps me in my marriage and my daily life. I think I have had my own therapy going for years.
There are days.... I am sure I should be in a hospital full of drugs so that I don't have to live in reality for a minute at least. But then I remember OH I can and I will.... GET THROUGH THIS! Whatever it may be. More than not just daily life. My own head and my own problems. Most of my stuff is NOT someone else. So I have figured it out and I look inward for comfort and reassurance. I have to~ I am the only one that know me.
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