Whole

A sweet little cafe, a latte, my writing utensil (my finger) and being this happy today in my soul sends me into holiday dreams. It must be the cold weather and the latte that have Christmas trees and turkeys dancing in my head.

I am hoping for a wonderful holiday season full of family gatherings and love. I LOVE to decorate and the fall smell of candles simmering around the house. The glow of the flames and the lights is a must.

Relief... I have it. Its like I can breath and be ok without worry. And that's a pretty big deal I've been worried and full of fear my whole life. Thank you God for showing me its ok to trust again. It has made my life feel whole again. Or should I say ..the hole inside me is going away ;-}

Destiny's child

I went to an event tonight that made me cry, laugh, ponder my beliefs, feel compassion, sing and clap, cry again but most of all it showed me that I really am right where I am suppose to be.

Right here in this small Texas town with this wonderful man who has loved me (and I him) for a thousand years and in his daughters life. In fact I can't decide if she's suppose to be here for me, or I for her. Maybe both. Maybe all three! We all need each other.

It has all happened with tragedy. But never the less here we all are together. And I can't leave out his mother... she very much fits in the same picture. And has had her own sorrows. I find that she too is part of my BIG picture. She came to me just the other day with open arms to console me and SHE was just who I needed as I had been feeling less than worthy of her compassion lately.

Joe and I both feel we were destined for one another. But tonight sitting in the grass watching his daughter console a young girl, I realized how much I care for her and it hit me... and I said to myself....this...SHE...is part of my work her on this earth. To be here for her, love her and guide her. Let her lean on me. That's when I thought..maybe were suppose to be here for each other..?

I told her tonight after we got home about all these thoughts. I cried a little. I don't want to scare her away. I just love her so much. In fact I can't believe how easily my love has grown for her. She said I don't really even know her. But I want to.... That's Traci below with her arm around her friend who was crying.