Expectations

I ... want to say that I'm starting to feel old..no just older. And somewhere in all this I can still feel like  a misfit sometimes. Like I don't fit in and never will. And then I just think all the hell with it I fit like it or not. I have to remind myself that everyone else probably has the same type feelings sometimes. Or at least they have feelings that are inside that no one else knows they are feeling some kind of uneasiness that they too have to shake off.

Ideally everyone would be happy most of the time and kind and say nice things. That's what I'm used to being thankful and showing it and getting it in return. So when someone responds to my  "hey how was your day?" with "hey", it makes me want to stop saying anything at all. I try to always think of others feelings probably more than I even should. I'm just a person that is kind.

No...no one has pissed me off and I'm not having a bad day. Its just something I noticed recently. And I think it goes back to some saying about not expecting anything from anyone because you will just get let down. Expectations....its a bad thing. Idk I need to look that up.

All in all things are good I just expect too much from the world I guess. And its just not feasible in the world we live in today.

Expectations are a down payment on a resentment.