I could go on about my other concerns.. My Dad. It never really leaves my mind. And lately with our line of communication being interrupted it makes it worse. I can write on regular paper and put it in the regular mail but I am too lazy for much of that and that's makes me feel as though I am letting him down. Yes I know I expect too much of myself. Then there is that thought in the back of my head of him being released (and it will come faster than I think) and that really puts me over the edge. For many reasons.
I worry about my mother and that I don't see her often enough. I don't spend time like I used to. And I cant even say more about that..
Life is just too short. And I am feeling like I need to focus before its all gone. Plainly, it all stresses me out. Anxiety I have it don't forget.
Im happy! With my life, the love of my life and my family. I am just the kind of person that needs to think it all through spell it out see it and say it so that I can try to deal and put it all in its place. Accept the things I cant change and change what I can. I cant change Tonya or my father but I can make a point to visit my mother more often :~)
So that's it. Happy Holidays! I love you Joe!! Im sorry if I have been too difficult lately.
