Peace of mind

I love hearing the water trickling and the birds from afar. The morning cool air soothes my inner soul. My thoughts are all I have. And when I have this peaceful time in the morning I yearn for more time like this. I realize how important to my well being that it is. I get a sense that God is with me and I want to keep feeling this way...but...off to reality I must go. Where the crazy people are that want nothing more than to make everyone as miserable as they.

I love you

I love you Joe.

I can breathe

In a few days I will be legally divorced. In a few months I will be legally remarried.. when I say it like that or think about it like that it makes me question myself and my abilities in the decision making department. Then I remember why!

I'm divorcing because I was married to a real son of a bitch ass! And I'm marrying because I have found the man I have dreamed about my whole life! Oh ya...Joe makes me happier than I have ever been. He is who and what I have always wanted. I'm smiling right now just thinking about all the great things I could say about him. But the best thing really...he loves me back and treats me accordingly...he takes care of me in everyway. He's honest, dependable, sincere, loving, attentive, hard working and ... sexy!

The thought of being with him for the rest of my life makes me feel like I can rest and breathe.

I love you Joe.

It is because of You

My bff called this morning. She's struggling and has been for years..well her whole life. She and her trials always puts me in perspective with my own life.

Grateful is what I need to be everyday. I have everything that she doesn't. By that I don't mean fancy cars and diamond rings! I mean a loving family, stability, a great fiance, a wonderful step daughter, a pretty good job and I don't struggle daily with demons.

Happiness does come from within my soul. As long as I'm settled with myself and in a healthy environment I'm doing great and I need to be thankful to God everyday! I don't sweat the small stuff and just smile because I have come a long way.

Thank you God for seeing fit to put me in a good place in this life and for being with me through it all. I know that you listened each time I fell to my knees. I know that it is because of you that I am whole and alive!

Life is like a box of..

I've spent my whole life wondering what my future holds for me. I don't want to anymore ... tomorrow will be what tomorrow will be. Nothing will ever be perfect or even close. I think its time to just let it be. Be happy everyday as my Dad always says.

Life really is like a box of hamburger helper.... add some extra fun  stuff or its crap!

He spoke with his eyes

I heard the words he said last night. He expressed his love. He gave his heart to me as he spoke sincere words of his loyalty and with his eyes I heard him.  When he spoke the sincerity came through in his eyes. Had they been closed I may not have heard or believed a word he said. It was his eyes. He never took them off of mine. The truth could not be hidden for his eyes were on mine and he spoke the truth.

I felt at ease after I saw and heard him say he would never leave me. Never be unfaithful. Never hurt me. And that he loves me and only me forever and unconditionally.
I won't say I didn't believe his words before...but somehow I knew in my soul I could trust. Finally the weight came off my shoulders and I could smile and breath again.

I've never felt more love in my life. He completes me like no other ever could. The love we share is something like I have never felt. Being close to him makes me feel whole. * One flesh~ "it ought to be difficult if not impossible to be separated from One another".

God made us for each other. I believe that with all I have.