Thank God for kids

Alan Jackson is singing this Christmas song "Thank God for kids". Sounds appropriate enough since its almost Christmas. Ive been thinking about writing lately but always lose what idea popped in my head that was writing worthy. So here I am again forced to come up with it... the thing that's worth reading about...

Ive had much thought lately about what my life will feel like as I grow older and who wont be here with me and how I will go on. And I think for me its knowing in my heart that I did what I could to do the right things after I finally grew up. To me that's probably all my parents ever wanted to see happen for me. I have known this for awhile. Ive been trying to accomplish it with my friends and family to tell them and show them I love them, I don't think I could go on if I felt I hadn't .. So in this regard Im good.

I know there are some people that just happened to be related that flatout will never get along or even be friends. We only have to be related it doesn't mean we have to like it. But all in all if its something or someone that you know you love! They need to know it and they wont unless you tell them. So I DO! Even sometimes when it feels awkward I say it.

Sometimes others needed to hear it and you didn't even know it. Ive had hugs like that given to me, haven't you? That hug that you really appreciate and smile and maybe cry. Ya so hug somebody!

Ive missed my friend Cheryl lately. Ive had her on my mind. It happens.Well... Those are my thoughts at this time. Goodnight

Milli's first Black eye of her whole life.. and she smiles. I love it!!

All my kids

Milliana Jo has inspired this post today. Im so grateful to have her in my life. Today she made me smile big, just like every other day. It made me think about all the "kids" that I am fortunate enough to have in my world. That I love and love me. I will miss a few here. Some I am not very close to anymore but they still hold my heart in their hands. You know who you are (if you ever see this). But I love them all. My cousins kids that I call me nieces and nephews and so on.

Pa And MJ

I testified as to the character of an acquaintance  in court last week. The attorney asked if I raised kids assuming I had I guess. He actually didn't ask he sort of assumed in his statement. My answer surprised me.. I said yes. So when he asked how many I had I felt like I had been caught in a lie and I said "none of my own". But I guess in small ways I have helped in little ways. Tim and Haley came and stayed with me in Colorado when they were kids. I used to be real close to Tonya's boys, wish I could see them more. Brian is all grown up and doesn't really come around any of us very much. So there are those that I miss. But many I am very close to. Brandy is more like a little sister than a niece. And of course The Smith boys light up my life! My step girls I adore and I don't like to say (step). It seems to lend the idea that its important to me to point that out. Its not at all. But they had a mother they loved so much and I will let them decide when they are comfortable with dropping the "step". They have brought love to my life like I could never imagine. They teach me more about myself everyday. And of course Milli is just well... THE BEST!



Milliana Jo

All you kids have a VERY VERY special place for me in my heart and more than that you all need to know that you make me feel like I didn't miss out on anything by not being able to bear my own children. Well with all that said.. Here are some fav pics !





 

 

My Nicaraguan kids

 

 

Illeana & Pedro My Godson

LUKE

Traci

My Jamesy Love to see him smile!!

Milli

Wesley

Jamesy & Wesley

Luke

Three Musketeer's! Great Visit

Cant leave this one out

I know I have more of these kiddos

My Fav pic of us! Brandy!!!! Love you

Luke as an ? Electrician?

Love to see Jamesy goofin off

Smarty pants here

The sweetest Milli Jo

LOL

Traci & Josh

Milli  & Auntie

Sweet Jacklyn with the love of her life Milli

Tim & Haley Love you kiddos

Wesley is growing up

She getting so big! Shes precious

Traci so purty

Just a swinging or rockin!

Jacklyn is such a good mommy!!

Those eyes!

 
 

The Only pregnancy Ive ever really felt a part of daily. Thank you for sharing that with me...... You were such a beautiful mom to be 

The Park

I find myself laying in bed about every night thinking about my past. I don't know why I can get lost in memories so much. I cant really say I have "many" regrets. But I think back to times Ive had or people I have known. Mostly in Colorado. I had a big life there and loads of friends and stories I could tell. Most are good.

Short visit 2014 Hoosier Pass

 Most of my friends there were from a little bar called the "Park Bar". It was an every day event for me. That is where I went for camaraderie  and support. It was like an episode of the show "Cheers". But the TV show never showed after happy hour! When the shots were flowing and the patrons were trying to play pool and dancing like no one was looking. Oh the stories we told there too!
I always liked it there when the snowstorms came through too. The bar had big picture windows all across the front and I loved to be inside with my friends toasting cheers and happy to have them. The wood stove was always fired up and anyone was free to throw another log on the fire. We talked  about how long the snow might last and drank a little more because I mean after all its a blizzard!!  What else are ya gonna do? Then occasionally we would watch people drive off and spin around trying to get on down the road.

Breckenridge

Over the 20 plus years I was there the bar had a few different owners. They were like family. Linda and I went shopping one year for decorations for my birthday party. And on New years for 1999 I was the DJ and played Prince's song "tonight were gonna party like its 1999! A two man band played there a lot "Fauth & Curry". That was Brad Curry and Tim Fauth. They were all our friends. We had Brian Black one year (Clint's brother). I sang many a song at that bar with bands from all over. Brian Black is my most memorable. He got on stage out back and said "now who is this local girl I keep hearing about that sings up a storm"! Well that was me of course! So I got up there in my Saturday golf attire and sang that crap outta some Patsy Cline. Oh those were the days. Thought I would surely be discovered some day. But I wasn't...

Mom and Buddy's place up Mosquito Gulch

I was single back then. Never really found anyone that could keep up with me. I had a lot of friends though. Male and female and sometimes I wonder where they all are. I imagine most are still there. And I am pretty sure if I went back I would see some at "The park" in the same bar stool, telling the same story. Some have left this earth sadly....Cheers to you all, The long the tall and the small as Raymond would say.