My life has started over again. Just yesterday I realized that I hadn't had not one thought of my soon to be ex husband in several days, and I just couldn't believe it! I've been so consumed with him for so long that I thought I would never feel my freedom from his hold. It was truly to my surprise that he had not managed to squirm into my thoughts....for DAYS! Ah I think I can breathe easy.
So of course once I realized that.. I ...thought of him and the first thing I thought was I want to get my divorce filed and erase that chapter from my life. On that same drive home from work I dreamt of burning our wedding pictures, saying a final farewell to all of that and to him. To the misery.
And I know somewhere inside him he will once again have regrets. Big ones! But that is not my problem anymore, it's just not. I don't even want to reserve that small piece of love I could still keep for him. If I wanted to I could, and I used to do just that. It feels great that I DON"T WANT TO :~)
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