And so it begins..

I am excited to start a new. A new blog, chapter and life. That's how it feels. Oh yes I've done this before. Somehow though it feels different. A good friend of mine says " Never look back always forward". I am going to take that advice and run with it (he says that too). I can run like the wind! (Gump) I forgot to add I also think I'm funny.. So get used to those silly little comments they won't go away.

So class I want to start today by talking about what it means to learn from our mistakes. What that means is that WE DON'T DO IT AGAIN! (note to self) I don't know if I'm hard headed, a gluten for punishment, co~dependent, insecure, insane (which some say means; doing the same thing over and over expecting different results) or just plain ol' naive, especially when it comes to love. I just figured if you never give up it should work out right? Wrong! It wasn't going to work no matter what I did and I shouldn't have ignore the indicators. The big red flags that I thought were so pretty when they popped up...Ohhh look another pretty flag (stold that from my BFF). 

Why the hell are some of so willing to let go of who we are and what we feel so strongly about all in the name of love? What the hell is that about? I mean .. I guess some guys probably do that. But I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that it's mostly women that lose ourselves to men. Like in the book/movie "Eat Pray Love" when she talks about how we start looking like our mates the way owners look like their dogs. It's TRUE!! I forgot all about who I was and opened up my entire existence to a man and he took it! Haha what did I expect?

So back to the lesson. The only way that I know if I have learned it is if I don't let it happen again. I hope in this process I don't go to far in the other direction and find that I don't let anyone in, I sorta feel that coming on. Guarded is good right? 

And why is it when you have a terrible breakup it seems all the songs are tear jerkers, that's all that's on the radio or If your like me you think that's the only kind of songs that are being recorded anymore. Maybe I should change the station. Or just turn it off :~)

P.S. There will be ex~husband bashing.. It's part of my therapy.