Breaking the cycle

I think I've made so many bad decisions in my life...and sometimes making decisions is so over whelming for me that I find it better to just PICK something so that I can move on with my day ( obsessing ) now I don't know when to trust my decisions. Its nothing... just me being OCD.

I found myself today questioning myself. Not because anything happened that I should... after realizing what I was doing and thinking about it I realized its because so much of the last few years have been... things going good then BAM ....over and over and over. Its like a cycle and I expect its about time for shit to go to hell. Not saying it will. In fact I'm almost certain it won't. But because of the "cycle" I find myself on guard, anxiety ridden and it effects people around me. Just another thing I have to be aware of and make sure I don't react to these feelings.

Everything has been working itself out...by that I mean MY messed up way of thinking.... I know the way I have been programmed is wrong. Reconditioning is the process. It will all be gone over time.

Thank you God for helping me recognize the cycle and break it. Thank you Joe for you patience, support, understand and unconditional love.  :-)